I think I am considering taking a long unpaid leave to be with my husband.

If things continue this way...

I read through this blog and realize my posts have been negative as of late.

Where were the inspiring posts, filled with positivity and tips for others?

Where did the optimistic HO go?

Quitting entirely would be a waste. I will still have my APC as long as I practice somehow until whenever, but I would like to contribute to my family too, and let's face it, that's the only reason why most of us stick in government jobs- for the safety of the future. For our families. 

Not to change the system to be better, it seems.

See? See where I'm going again with the negativity?

Maybe a small break for now. It's hard to think when your emotions are so clouded, and a nice break may put things into a different, better perspective.